Today begins the gift of a fifteen week sabbatical. I have committed to posting every other week so I begin today.
This morning I awoke with a jerk and immediately thought I was late. This is funny because today is a school holiday so there are no sounds in the house or outside of children preparing for school. There was no reason for me to bolt upright in bed worried about the day. My arrival downstairs shocked my always early rising spouse and our dog.
I am not surprised by my early rising today, I expect this will last most of this first week and into the second. I have an excess of energy and my mind is rushing with all the tasks I think I need to be doing; those tasks I have handed over to others to do for this sabbatical. I know this feeling of needing to get things done will settle down as I ease into the rest of this sabbatical.
To help slow me down I am learning a poem today. I am memorizing “The World I Live In” by Mary Oliver, found on page five of her book Devotions, published in 2017 by Penguin Press. I am struck by the reality that I have lost some of my sense of wonder and am not watching for angels. Yesterday at our monthly session meeting (church board) the elders talked about watching for God and I realized how much I missed watching for God myself. I tell people about God all the time, I mention how I see God working in their lives daily, but I have lost the sense of wonder in watching for the Holy Spirit to work.
This first day of this sabbatical gift I am confronted with how I have closed my eyes. I am committed to opening them again so I can see the wider world.